Here 'er goes

I always seem to bet on the wrong horse. I have accounts on 3 other "bloggish" type sites (LiveJournal 5 years, MySpace 3 years, Facebook 1 year) and this is the one that everyone is using. Oh well, "when in Rome," eh? I'm still trying to figure out the art of creating your page... I've figured out the others on the whole, I guess I'll get this one eventually.

I've had a ball today blog hopping. I'm a shameless lurker. I'm just naturally interested in people, so blogs are quite fun for me to cruise around on. I've jumped around my cousin's blogs, Russ' cousins blogs. Some I know well, some not as much. But I've SO enjoyed getting to know them better through their writings. These little web sites can really be a blessing if used in the right way. So if you ever get that feeling that you're being watched, it might just be me. Boy, I hope that doesn't make me as creepy as that sounds. :-/

One thing I have really enjoyed is becoming acquainted with people that I haven't had the opportunity to get to know as well as I'd like. I'm afraid that I'm a little insecure and shy with folks I don't know well. That includes family members. I'm easily intimidated, which is frustrating because I really like people and getting to know them. I don't know where that comes from but it's something that I'm hoping I'll eventually over come. Yeah, 32 is a bit late to start, but you never stop trying to grow and progress, right?

As I was reading I felt that tendancy to compare or be intimidated a bit. I'm so different than some of my family. They are so NOT shy, so together, so this or that. It's easy to look at peoples lives from the outside and compare yourself and find you're lacking in someway. I think Lucifer really uses that to keep us from our full potential. Fear, low self worth, jealousy, etc, etc... Those are feelings I have to work hard at overcoming. In some I've made a lot of progress, in others I could be better. I know I have a GREAT life. I've been so tremendously blessed and even if I don't have the same strengths and gifts that others might, I still have my own that can bless the lives of others.

One of my blessings is our little Liam (aka William or Wil). What joy a new, sweet spirit brings into your life. Yeah, we may be a little more bleary eyed, but it doesn't take long until you wonder how you ever lived your life without them. He's starting to smile more and more, and every time he does it makes me so happy the joy just bursts out of me. It's so sweet. Each stage of development is so wonderful.

The kids have really enjoyed him. Britton especially. Yeah, having a brother for your 9th birthday present is a pretty good deal, in his opinion. He's so sweet and tender with him. I love that when the baby is upset he works so hard to try and make him happy. The other day I went in and found him singing to the baby. He's a great baby sitter. Though it helps that he can play his DS and hold his brother at the same time.

Darien's reaction so far has been pretty good, but I've caught myself putting him off in favor of something the baby needs. I realized that he would have to ask me several times for something he needed before I'd do it for him. "Hold on a sec, I need to feed the baby first." or "Wait a minute, I don't want to wake up the baby." I'm glad I noticed because lately he's been throwing bigger fits over smaller things. At first I thought it was just part of the terrible 3's (they say 3 is the new 2), but then when I was talking to my mom about it I realized that it might be more than that. So we've tried to be better about it.

Speaking of Darien, My favorite kid quote since Liam was born is his. During our first week home I was nursing the baby and he walks by and giggles, "Heh, heh. William eats Mom boob." Lol! How I love my children. Don't know what I did to deserve them, but I'm so grateful the Lord has been so generous.